Who Am I?

(A morning prayer)

 DC---Lord For over 50 years I have been asking myself that one simple question, and I am still searching for an answer.

CD---Well are you any closer today than you were even 25 years ago?

DC---I can’t say as I am Lord, but I can say I have a lot more peace of mind  in not knowing than I did 25 years ago.

CD---Well I would say that is pretty much of an answer. 

DC---What do you mean Lord?

CD---Well, if you have peace without knowing, why would you even want to know?

DC---That’s a good thought

CD---Maybe you don’t even need to know an answer to that question.  Look at it this way.  Moses asked the question, “who shall I say has sent me?” My father’s response was just tell them that “I am” sent you.  He didn’t even have to waste time convincing people of who he was.  That is probably a good example for you. 

DC---Ok, Lord, it is true; I like Moses feel weak and of no real importance, and I suppose I feel that is my reason for the question.  Why should I spend so much time doing all this writing, and thinking, if I am not understood in my reasoning for such an effort?  I get this feeling that those around me will say, “Just who does this guy think he is?”  Or, maybe they will think I am stark raving crazy, believing I have the   answers to all of the world’s problems. 

CD---Oh dock, my friend, but you do.  You do have answers: a lot of answers.  You see, where you err is by thinking that people don’t want to hear what you have to tell them.  Today people are starving to death for real truth.  Just look around you at all the chaos, all the corruption, and misery.  Look at all the crime, divorce and loss of family.  Yes, you do have something to tell them.  You just have to have the confidence and the faith to believe that spiritually dying souls out in my universe are looking and longing for even just a thread of hope to hold onto.  They look for tiny bits of optimism to help them even get through this day, and here you are struggling with such a mundane question.  You don’t need to worry about giving an answer to who you are?

But now, let me just ask you some questions?  What is influencing your life more than any other thing right at the moment as we are speaking?

DC---Your presence.  The time I have with you.  Your word: especially the Psalms and hymns that comes from the worship of your word.  There is so much music and poetry that comes to me every day from my child hood, and it rivets my brain, especially in these early mornings with you.

CD---and What else?

DC---well, my family and friends: mentors that you have placed in my path.

CD---Exactly, and what is the piece of music that has been flowing through your mind these past two mornings as you have awakened?

DC---There is an old song that we used to sing at Church when I was a kid, maybe even in my teen years that contained these words.  I don’t know if I am remembering them exactly, but at least it went something like this:

The world today is dying, for want of Gospel Truth.

Old Satan too, is trying to snare our precious youth.

But if we work together, and travel hand in hand, we’ll, get to know Him better, and travel to that land.

Chorus:

They want to know, they want to know the Gospel truth.  They want to know, they want to know the Gospel truth.  They want to know, they want to know the Gospel truth.  So let us go and give the world the Gospel truth.  

CD---So you see Dock, there you have it.  Just go out proclaiming my truth, and it will not matter what people may think.  And if anyone ever asks, Just tell them, “I am” sent you.  And while you are at it, here is another little chorus that will help to get you through a day when you struggle with the question of who you are.

Who am I that a King would bleed and die for?

Who am I that He would pray: "Not my will, thine for?"

The answer I may never know,

Why He ever loved me so.

That to an old rugged cross He would go,

For who am I?